Sunday, December 28, 2014

Constant Vigilance

That's what optimistic means, you know. It means stupid... "Hey, maybe something nice will happen." Why the f*** would anything nice ever happen?
 - Louis CK, from "Louis CK: Hilarious"

Getting out of bed used to be the hardest thing in my life. If you've never suffered from chronic depression, you may not understand. Yes, getting out of bed in one of the hardest things in the world. But it's not number one.

The hardest thing in the world is not going down the rabbit hole. The hardest thing is keeping my thoughts from going dark. Unfortunately, this life is pretty dark.

It's easier to write pain than recovery, easier to see pain than recovery, easier to feel empty than to feel full, easier to feel ready to die than ready to live. That's just the human condition.