Sunday, May 17, 2020

The Earth Moved

Something in the world shifted. I know that's a shit description,... It was like an earthquake that didn't disturb a single blade of grass...
 - January Scaller, The Ten Thousand Doors of January, by Alix Harrow [more]

Give me a lever long enough and a fulcrum on which to place it...
 - Archimedes [more]

I only need to know where to stand.
 - Peter Reidinger, Pegasus In Space, by Anne McCaffrey [more]

There are moments in time that have the potential to change everything. I've seen people who had a crisis of faith after 9/11, or Columbine, or any of a dozen dozen other crises that have literally shook the world. I also know people who had a crisis of faith after watching The Matrix or Inception.

None of those really changed anything for me, but it's not unusual for me to feel a heart-wrenching sensation, as if I ought to be having my worldview turned upside-down, if only I hadn't already had my crisis of faith, done all the soul-searching required, and settled on my foregone conclusion.

There are some things I'm still uncertain on; there are some things that are engraved into the fabric of my universe. And stone... stone is actually pretty impermanent and malleable from the right perspective.

Curiously, the holes in my certainty are those that science fiction and fantasy stories most like to play with. It's no wonder that I drew inspiration for my spiritual rebirth from de Lint, DeChancie, Gaiman, Card, and Heinlein (more or less in that order, too).

And there are some things to me that are just plain magic, and my life feels too drab to hope for them.